Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Loser Mom

So, it's been awhile since I have blogged and part of that was purposeful, part of it was lack of time. I have this thing that happens to me every so often, maybe it happens to others too. Reading other people's blogs makes me feel like a loser and a failure. Seeing and reading about other people's peaceful, creative days filled with delicious homemade meals, crafting galore, and the pictures to prove it makes me wonder what I am doing wrong when dinner is grilled cheese and a can of soup and I haven't sewn a stitch in weeks, let alone documented any of it with pictures. I have been settling arguments, feeding mouths ALL day, wiping butts ALL day and nursing a toddler ALL day!! There is no time for sewing, knitting, making fabulous meals and heaven forbid I takes any pictures because that would mean having to use my messy, disorganized house as a backdrop. Then I have a few days to ruminate on all of this, and I realized that no matter what people say, this happens to everyone. Not everyday is as perfect as they may blog about. When I spend most of the day reading books to the kids and making forts out of blankets, I realize that I am doing what really matters. They will remember the hours spent on the couch reading fighting over who sits on what side of me, and all the card games we have been playing. It makes all the guilt from the unfolded laundry go away, when I think about the guilt I won't have when they are grown. So it's ok with me that this is where I am in my life, I think my days are spent with three amazing little people, and I wouldn't have it any other way!

4 comments:

Sonja said...

Hey, I'm glad you're back to blogging. I know exactly what you mean... It's been so hot that I haven't actually cooked or cleaned in weeks, though last night's refidgerator cleaning gave me a kick in the pants. I can't believe how much food I had to throw out simply because I didn't get off my youknowwhat to wash it, slice it, and put it on a plate. Meh. I'll do better this week. :)

Yara said...

and here I thought you weren't blogging cuz you are super mom, off doing fun stuff with the kids, you know- like actually taking them to the park & building forts!
I don't like cooking in the summer. It's too hot.
And I still have those baskets of laundry to put away...

Kimberly said...

You are so right! We ALL feel like this sometimes. It's impossible not to compare yourself to other moms and it's easy to feel like they're doing it better. Grilled cheese and soup is delicious and beats the heck out of slaving in the kitchen for hours when there are little butts and mouths to tend to and arguments to settle. I hope you don't feel inferior often because in my book, you are the ultimate supermom and I really admire you.

Therese said...

I just saw this! You are on a blog-roll! I am also in awe of you! What you are doing - reading, making forts, spending time WITH the kids is so SO much more important than cleaning up the house, cooking, sewing, and then posting pictures and blogging about it -all while the kids watch TV all day. What you are doing- actually spending time with the kids and involving them in your day is SO much better and your kids are lucky to have you as their mom.
And also- Ada is at that age, where you don't have the luxury of massive time on the computer during the day. My kids are a little older now and playing so well, its easy for me to sneak away and blog or facebook. Its easy to get trapped online and ignore the house and the kids. Its hard to do what you are doing. You are inspiration to us all!