Tuesday, July 21, 2009
So, it's been awhile since I have blogged and part of that was purposeful, part of it was lack of time. I have this thing that happens to me every so often, maybe it happens to others too. Reading other people's blogs makes me feel like a loser and a failure. Seeing and reading about other people's peaceful, creative days filled with delicious homemade meals, crafting galore, and the pictures to prove it makes me wonder what I am doing wrong when dinner is grilled cheese and a can of soup and I haven't sewn a stitch in weeks, let alone documented any of it with pictures. I have been settling arguments, feeding mouths ALL day, wiping butts ALL day and nursing a toddler ALL day!! There is no time for sewing, knitting, making fabulous meals and heaven forbid I takes any pictures because that would mean having to use my messy, disorganized house as a backdrop. Then I have a few days to ruminate on all of this, and I realized that no matter what people say, this happens to everyone. Not everyday is as perfect as they may blog about. When I spend most of the day reading books to the kids and making forts out of blankets, I realize that I am doing what really matters. They will remember the hours spent on the couch reading fighting over who sits on what side of me, and all the card games we have been playing. It makes all the guilt from the unfolded laundry go away, when I think about the guilt I won't have when they are grown. So it's ok with me that this is where I am in my life, I think my days are spent with three amazing little people, and I wouldn't have it any other way!